Life by Sar

I'm laying across the bed in our hotel room in Cuba. The weather is super shit outside. Its our first day and I'm completely exhausted from everything. I've some how managed to trigger a food coma from olives, churros, and stale fries. Promise you I'm not pregnant. This is legitimately our food situation right now.  My husband is passed out and snoring away while Rihaan is trying to shit - Lord knows hes been trying for 4 days now.  He's on all fours with his bum swaying in my face, contracting his muscles - full moment - I thought to myself, fuck my life is passing by and I haven't gotten around to writing again. I'm missing this whole side to me, I feel disconnected from where I'm supposed to be. Writing satisfies me in a way I can't explain. Emptying my thoughts onto paper is fulfilling in a way I can't quite describe.  I learned to write well in summer school while taking Grade 11 English. I cant recall the name of that particular En...

It’s been a while since we’ve spoken. It’s no secret that we’ve been distant; estranged. My life got too busy for you. Other things became a priority; And I changed. You’ve stayed exactly the same, right where I left you. I stopped visiting - Got caught up, and Lost you. Thought of you often. Never at peace. Days began to escape me. A discouraging tease. Too much has happened. I don’t know where to start. Highs as high as the mountains. Lows beyond anything I’ve ever felt. A lonely journey. Slipping and sliding. Harder without you there, Within me. I want to tell you so much. You are eager to hear. But this starts with a confession, It was never you, it was always me; my fear.

When I was taking Philosophy in Grade 13, I remember having to write an essay with extremely vague instructions. Essentially, our teacher Mr. Smith, instructed us to write a 3 page philosophical paper. This was his exact and only instruction. I swear the first question asked was, "Mr. Smith, what's a philosophical paper?" But I suppose, that's exactly what he wanted us to discover on our own?! Anyways, that essay was one of the reasons why I got early acceptance into Waterloo. It was my first and unfortunately the last time I ever received 101% on something. The bonus 1% was given out to students who impressed Mr. Smith. I felt really special because I was the only one. (All Bragging rights reserved for life) Aside from this wicked grade and early acceptance in to loo, I truly learned a life long lesson. Like most students in high school, I started working on my assignment the night before it was due. I spent most of the night researching on Yahoo looking up ...

Dear Readers, A famous Cuban-French writer named Anais Nin once wrote, “We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospect”. For the past year, this blog has been my way of channeling thoughts, feelings, and emotions. Writing is an outlet for me. It is a way for me to rationalize my feelings, conceptualize my thoughts and shape my perceptions. In business development, I use process flow maps to capture the life journey of an input transpiring to an output or result. This visual allows me to isolate the specific output so that I can investigate, study, and track its journey. By the end of it, I have a clear and concise visual of the entire process, a process that I can then tweak, refine, and optimize. In my personal life, “the pen has been the tongue of my mind” and this blog has been a journey holding an account of various inputs materializing to my present life. Writing has helped me understand my thoughts and improve my communication with me and those around me....

I’ve learned that when I can’t put something behind me or get over it,  it’s because it’s a “me” issue.  Specifically issues that I haven’t dealt with properly which have shaped my views, thoughts and feelings over time. So when I can’t trust someone in circumstances where I really have no reason not to… it's really about all the other times I trusted myself to trust others and the whole thing landed in the shitter! Yes, a nasty cocktail of past disappointments, pain, and anger - the kind you manage to swallow but can't really stomach! During my visit at the Shivanada Ashram in India, I learned that when you’re free from your past, then only can you have a relationship with your intuition or gut feeling. This isn’t just about trusting people. This is about trusting you. You can’t trust yourself unless you have a relationship with your intuition. You can’t trust your gut feelings unless you eliminate clouds of doubt and shadows of anger. To have a relationship with yourself...

From the original article on http://supernaturalbotanicals.com/blog/3-benefits-of-meditation Meditation.   It’s a beautiful thing.   Now hang on, don’t grab your latte and go running for the door just yet. Meditation, perhaps to your surprise, is not only reserved for the deep-thinking, tree-hugging, granola-eating individuals of the world.  And those of us who practice meditation regularly, we have all been on that side of the fence at one point, too.  Many of us have thought it was too new-agey or down right flaky, that is, until we tried it. Meditation can be simply sitting in a quiet room, concentrating on your breath slowly in and out, for no longer than a minute.  Yes, even one minute can bring great benefits to your life.  Consider the wonderful benefits below, then contemplate at least one minute of time just for yourself today.  After all, you’ll never know until you try..so dig right into the concept of taking a minute...