I’ve learned that when I can’t put something behind me or get over it, it’s because it’s a “me” issue. Specifically issues that I haven’t dealt with properly which have shaped my views, thoughts and feelings over time. So when I can’t trust someone in circumstances where I really have no reason not to… it's really about all the other times I trusted myself to trust others and the whole thing landed in the shitter! Yes, a nasty cocktail of past disappointments, pain, and anger - the kind you manage to swallow but can't really stomach! During my visit at the Shivanada Ashram in India, I learned that when you’re free from your past, then only can you have a relationship with your intuition or gut feeling. This isn’t just about trusting people. This is about trusting you. You can’t trust yourself unless you have a relationship with your intuition. You can’t trust your gut feelings unless you eliminate clouds of doubt and shadows of anger. To have a relationship with yourself...
"We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospect" - Anais Nin