February 28th 2011:
I've been feeling a little out of my element since January. Really, it's getting out of hand. This is an extremely crucial year that is going to define me for the rest of my life. But for some reason I don't feel challenged and I don't seem to feel bothered by it as well. To sum it up, I feel MEH. Where is my drive? Where is my focus? Where is my desire? Like who do I think I am? I can't even explain how upset I've been with myself lately....
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I obviously needed a little push. A little reminder that I don't own a magic wand (e-Bay's got 'em if anyone's interested), haven't won the lottery (YET!), and I'm not some disguised princess living a middle class life either. It's very typical of me to leave things to the last minute. I work great under pressure. I deliver my best when I'm under stress. It's just part of being an Aries and my personality. I thrive off challenges and when I find myself in a boring situation I create my own challenges. I let work pile up and take great pride in timing myself to see how fast I can get through the back log. I'm so not the desk-job type of gal. And if I had to explain how I survived at Rogers every month-end... well let's just say I miss competing with myself. But this was different.
It's time to pull up my socks. I needed a solution and I needed one fast! I spoke to friend of mine who was going through something similar. I asked her to slap me straight. However, she recommended turning to religion and found solace in Rev. Joel Osteen. I was skeptical at first, I mean getting all Christian'd up in a Hindu joint....is ballsy and whimsical? Anyways, I was desperate to try anything so I googled him and found a video that truly turned my mindset around. The podcast is called "Starting your day off Right". Once I was able to look past biblical references, I realized that Joel is an outstanding public speaker. As I listened closely to what he had to say, I became more drawn to his thoughts and was able to relate. Joel pointed out that many of us take 20-30 minutes every morning to get ourselves ready. If you're like me and you're washing your hair that morning it ends up taking close to an hour. Joel questions, what are we doing to get the inner-wo/man ready for the day? Valid point! We invest in our outer side for the day but we hardly take time to prepare ourselves mentally. We shower, pick out our clothes, put on our make up, accessorize, do our hair, spray some perfume and EAT. When I had a corporate job, all I could think of was deadlines due that day and meetings I had to attend. I was stressed out even before I started my day. I had so much going through my mind that I couldn't possibly work in 5-10 minutes to prepare myself mentally.
Joel on the other hand, brings up the importance of taking 10-15 minutes every morning to thank (God/Universe or whatever you believe in) for all the good things in your life. To take the time to ask for help, to ask for strength to help you finish everything on your list and to ask for patience so that you do an accurate job. To ask for what you want and then to go over what you would like to accomplish for the day. I really connected with him. He calls this INVESTING in yourself and not "oh I have to SPEND time on myself". I mean, I read the secret three years ago and noticed how fast things changed for me. The secret talks about the same thing- Having an intimate relationship with the universe where you transmit positive energy and the universe responds by giving you what you want. Joel along with many other religious speakers talk about having an intimate relationship with the creator of the universe. He puts it as, "Ask and thou shalt receive". This wasn't a religious calling for me - but I realized where I goofed up. I stopped receiving life the minute I stopped asking for it. I stopped having a relationship with the universe and it's creator. So I realized it's time for me start again. I've only been doing this for the past two days but preparing my inner-"wo"man has been paying off! I feel more focused, refreshed, ambitious and driven. Not to mention, organized and realistic about maintaining others expectations. I have promised myself that I will make me time every morning at tea time. Everyone should try it.
Link to Joel Osteen:
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=6401032422858867407#docid=947316055090394467
I've been feeling a little out of my element since January. Really, it's getting out of hand. This is an extremely crucial year that is going to define me for the rest of my life. But for some reason I don't feel challenged and I don't seem to feel bothered by it as well. To sum it up, I feel MEH. Where is my drive? Where is my focus? Where is my desire? Like who do I think I am? I can't even explain how upset I've been with myself lately....
* * *
I obviously needed a little push. A little reminder that I don't own a magic wand (e-Bay's got 'em if anyone's interested), haven't won the lottery (YET!), and I'm not some disguised princess living a middle class life either. It's very typical of me to leave things to the last minute. I work great under pressure. I deliver my best when I'm under stress. It's just part of being an Aries and my personality. I thrive off challenges and when I find myself in a boring situation I create my own challenges. I let work pile up and take great pride in timing myself to see how fast I can get through the back log. I'm so not the desk-job type of gal. And if I had to explain how I survived at Rogers every month-end... well let's just say I miss competing with myself. But this was different.
It's time to pull up my socks. I needed a solution and I needed one fast! I spoke to friend of mine who was going through something similar. I asked her to slap me straight. However, she recommended turning to religion and found solace in Rev. Joel Osteen. I was skeptical at first, I mean getting all Christian'd up in a Hindu joint....is ballsy and whimsical? Anyways, I was desperate to try anything so I googled him and found a video that truly turned my mindset around. The podcast is called "Starting your day off Right". Once I was able to look past biblical references, I realized that Joel is an outstanding public speaker. As I listened closely to what he had to say, I became more drawn to his thoughts and was able to relate. Joel pointed out that many of us take 20-30 minutes every morning to get ourselves ready. If you're like me and you're washing your hair that morning it ends up taking close to an hour. Joel questions, what are we doing to get the inner-wo/man ready for the day? Valid point! We invest in our outer side for the day but we hardly take time to prepare ourselves mentally. We shower, pick out our clothes, put on our make up, accessorize, do our hair, spray some perfume and EAT. When I had a corporate job, all I could think of was deadlines due that day and meetings I had to attend. I was stressed out even before I started my day. I had so much going through my mind that I couldn't possibly work in 5-10 minutes to prepare myself mentally.
Joel on the other hand, brings up the importance of taking 10-15 minutes every morning to thank (God/Universe or whatever you believe in) for all the good things in your life. To take the time to ask for help, to ask for strength to help you finish everything on your list and to ask for patience so that you do an accurate job. To ask for what you want and then to go over what you would like to accomplish for the day. I really connected with him. He calls this INVESTING in yourself and not "oh I have to SPEND time on myself". I mean, I read the secret three years ago and noticed how fast things changed for me. The secret talks about the same thing- Having an intimate relationship with the universe where you transmit positive energy and the universe responds by giving you what you want. Joel along with many other religious speakers talk about having an intimate relationship with the creator of the universe. He puts it as, "Ask and thou shalt receive". This wasn't a religious calling for me - but I realized where I goofed up. I stopped receiving life the minute I stopped asking for it. I stopped having a relationship with the universe and it's creator. So I realized it's time for me start again. I've only been doing this for the past two days but preparing my inner-"wo"man has been paying off! I feel more focused, refreshed, ambitious and driven. Not to mention, organized and realistic about maintaining others expectations. I have promised myself that I will make me time every morning at tea time. Everyone should try it.
Link to Joel Osteen:
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=6401032422858867407#docid=947316055090394467
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